Amazing

Apparently after being specifically told to be quiet in the morning, my silence is deafening and I was told to talk.  I told Him exactly how I felt and everything from my previous post, and He agreed that I had a right to feel angry and betrayed, that it wasn't a deliberate and malicious act, that it was an overreaction and that He regrets it and apologizes, and that apparently He did lie with me for a few minutes (not that I noticed through the crying and the pain).

I'm still not sure how to feel.  I'm still angry and feeling betrayed, and I made sure He knew that I was not ready to forgive Him.  I still feel like this was a horrible abuse of my trust, despite it not being a deliberately cruel act.  

Of course, every time I think about or discuss or write about this I start crying, which isn't helping the intense pain in my head.

Luckily, I have a date with a friend tonight, so once He leaves for work I will not see Him until I get home just before bedtime.  I think that the distance may do me good, and perhaps it will give Him some time to think about things from my perspective and how He can make things right.